"Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me." Psalm 42:7Psalm 42 is possibly my favorite of all the psalms. When I listen to songs, particularly secular songs, I love to pick out the ones that there seems to be a heart-cry for God. Usually, I'm sure the lyricist doesn't even know that the thing that he's searching for and singing about is Yahweh, but I get some sort of satisfaction in knowing that they are singing about HIM. Psalm 42 is one of those that just speaks of the deepest part of man that needs the deep things of God. Lord, I may not know who I am or what I am doing, but all I know is that I want to know you and be close to you.
Psalm 42:7, as beautiful as it is and as much as I love it, has never ceased to puzzle me. I try to wrap my head around what the psalmist was professing about God in this scripture. I was finally able to grasp at least part of what is being said here while I was watching TV last week. I don't even remember now what show it was.
The man was talking about when he was a child and had ended up being dragged down by the waves not far off shore from a beach. He struggled and he struggled and the more he struggled the harder it was. He finally just let go. He gave in to the waves and they carried him back to shore.
It is all in letting go. Maybe I couldn't understand this scripture because I don't know how to swim and have especially never been to swim in ocean waters where there is a current and power in the waters. However, I do understand the feeling of fighting against a force that is sometimes unseen. Kicking and struggling and pushing against it trying to find my bearings. Yet the safety and security is truly in surrendering to the force. Of course, God and the works of His kingdom are the only ones that should be surrendered to.
I've come to recognize that a lot of my thoughts and actions are the result of me pushing against some force that is trying to invade my space and my way of life. It is me trying to keep control of what little I understand because introducing anything else will totally disrupt my understanding. I push so much and have done so for so long that I know giving into the waves and allowing the breakers to wash over me would be such a relief. Not only will they carry me to where I truly need to be but they will also wash away everything that doesn't need to come with me.
"As the deer panteth for the water, so my soul longeth after thee. You alone are my heart's desire and I long to worship you." ... and let go of myself!
